If you really meant it.

Right now, i'm blogging with my phone. Cos my sister zonked the computer out.

Anyway, just wanted to say. What i fear seems to have arrived. I conclude so because of several reasons. But i won't list it out cos it's retarded and the person will know.

Tia, we are mega pathetic sluts; love.

Why do i feel like, this ain't got no substance.

I can't explain this feeling, it's been just a week.
And i feel like, _.
I don't know what i want.
It's like i _.
But i want to like, be good friends and that's all.
Right, i don't get this feeling.

I hope you mean what you said, cos i feel as if you already broke my heart.

dot/point/fullstop

• I hate it when people say do things and they don't mean it either.
• I hate it when people say things when they don't actually mean it.
• I hate it when you get to know someone for a awhile then,
  sooner or later you don't talk to them anymore.
  

I really hate that last point. It's really annoying especially when you like have faith in the person and the next thing you know, she's already gone off to suck another persons brain/feelings/emotions.

Alright, this is so stupid, i blogged twice in the span of 15 minutes.

Mass production.

You're swinging from side to side. You're not standing still.
quit jumping ship.

hello, i had heats today and fucking hell i didnt finish la. I did shott put, miss philips said hang around and then me and emelia mo hung around and waited for like damn bloody long until we were forced to leave the fucking stadium. What the fuck la. super pek chek.

My finger's on the send,
send? don't send?
send? don't send?
send? don't send?
send? don't send?
send? don't send?
like jeanette always says, don't send.

Why can't it be like the first week.

I miss you slut! I really do. Why can't it be the first week forever. When i first got to know you. I wish things didnt progress that far. Why can't we be friends? I fucking miss you.

I fuckin' miss you.
I fuckin' miss you.
I fuckin' miss you.
I fuckin' miss you.
I fuckin' miss you.
I fuckin' miss you.
I fuckin' miss you.
I fuckin' miss you.
I fuckin' miss you.
I fuckin' miss you.
I fuckin' miss you.
I fuckin' miss you.
I fuckin' miss you.
I fuckin' miss you.

smile a little smile for me, ___.

I'm kinda happy! I popped out of english class and smiled at someone and she smiled back.
I feel happy, Miss Seah talked to me! :) It's a pretty happy day! I'll come along later when i remember what i wanted to note. :)

Imma gonna go off to school like, really soon. Woke up at 6 and I did everything so slowly and I can't believe I'm waiting to go to school. Usually my dad is waiting but anyhow. Yeah, last night I thought about some stuff. It made me feel kinda guilty although it happened when I was primary 4. Like 5 years ago. And I can't believe I still can live with such a guilty conscience. Damn, must be school.

I was watching the closing ceremony of the commonwealth games, and i was overwhelmed by how you know, big a thing is it. I saw an Aussie bung! :D but that's besides the point. When the commentators were talking all this sporting thing and blah, i thought about how one day i aspire to be just like them. That's what i used to think. But no more, it's kinda sad that i never got to be able to do something like that. :(

i'm so sad. I forgot about my javelin heats today.
Console me bitches.

i like shizzz!

ZOMG. i've got a new maid! :( my old maid just left. I don't like my new maid's face. I want to buy a shirt, cannot tahan anymore! HEEHEE.

running around.

Hello, i had PTC today. It was quite successful compared to other years, other years were just plain awful!

Today i saw this person, In the morning she talked to me. She was really nice and that's why i like her very very much. She asked me how i was feeling, I told her why and she just laughed it off cos it was sort of a joke. Then i saw her during PTC, i felt like crying but she was really cool and all. Right, it's so retarded. I miss her. I'm gonna miss her when she goes, They say she's not coming back ever. I don't believe and it's really sad to see her go.
I remember quite vividly, I first saw her and everyone told me she was a complete bitch. I sort of believed then i was being quite an ass and i didn't appreciate her. After awhile, i grew to like her very very much. I still do in fact. She said what, i'd do what. I wanted to impress her, hoping she'd notice me. She did, and i was glad. Now, i'm back where i started and i regret not trying hard enough. Now she's gone and i'm never gonna get her back again. She sometimes avoids me when i walk past her, she walks away when i walk nearer. It's kind of sad, but i can't help it. I'll miss her dearly when she goes, so dearly.

I saw my secret crush in school! She came to school! OMG! :D

Omg, i'm so caught in a dumb dilemna! :( I can't decide over the green squirrel shirts or the defunker shirts on the busted tees or the threadless shirts! :( I CAN'T DECIDE! BOOOO! Green Squirrel's too childish and not good enough but it's cheap! Defunker get's shirts from other sites but charge it higher and they dont ship to singapore! BIGGER BOOOO! Busted tees are very american odd for a chink like me to wear it. and lastly threadless' price is quite reasonable but shipping is OI! and the shirts are so nice! but i'm spoilt for choice i want alot leh!

Super super fly.

Hello hello, Ziping is really very absent minded! Tanya, Ziping and I were like talking about how she always left something when she came to my house! Then she was like, I wonder what I should leave behind this time! Then we watched Memoirs of a Geisha and they felt like going back I walked them to the bus stop. Then I went home I was like, eh how come we got a black razor at home!? I then realized Ziping left her mobilephone in my house! AHA! She's really left a souvenir for me everytime she came to my house! The first time was, bible, wallet. The second was a pair of earrings. The third time was her valentine's day gift and fourth and hopefully the last, her mobile phone! So smart! :D

I've got whole load of math to do. :( which is since before the holidays. I shall go finish it after this, but I feel like like sleeping. I'm sloth! Got do questions, 1b 2a 2b 3a 4 5 6.

Suddenly, I've got some stereotypical mindset. It's really horrible because I keep thinking about lesbians. :\ Not as in sex and stuff, but as in I keep thinking that as long as a girl and another girl are in really close proximity they are like getting intimate. It's quite odd and I don't know why I'm thinking like that, but I am! It's bad but I can't help it. :(

my cake is nice, but it tastes odd now. Must be the air. I missed school today, I had cramps in the morning and i was really tired. Charmaine sent to me this irritating song which is fucking fast, i can't catch a damn word!
My mum agreed to get me the V3X last night, then i just thought about it and realized, I DONT WANT THE V3X! i like forgot what phone i wanted then i looked throught the WTA sony ericsson tour, photo galleries and i saw a middle eastern man handing over a w900 to Nadia Petrova then i realized, OOOOPS! i forgot that's the phone i actually wanted! but it's bloody huge! so i want the w800i, Nastya uses it! :D but Bryan's got it already, but he wants me to have the same phone as him. Retarded kid. but i still love him. :D
GRRRRRRRR. i'm tired. i wanna bake another cake! HEEHEE but no more flour.

I don't know why, i get this feeling from _ & _, that they are together!

ok! quick post, my cake is baking downstairs gotta check it soon. yeah in 3 minutes time. Anyway, had a very bad headache last night. Couldn't sleep. I took 9 panadols then i felt much better. So yeah. school was ok. everything was ok, but i dont know why it passsed so quickly. hmmmm. i'm baking a cake a again for tomorrow. hope it's much better! :D :D and... this girl _ she's very pretentious. SIGH.

School's starting tomorrow.
Why am i so not excited?
i wonder.

turning away from turning tables.

There is no way you can feel emptier than me right now, Imagine waking up at 9 from a nap you started around 6. You wake up, you feel like everything's gone. That's how i feel. You're gone, you're gone and you're gone too! It really is never gonna feel the same. You once said we'd be best friends forever, why is it i feel by the you're done this year i'll no longer be in contact with you? Be there? you were never there.
Please don't act like you actually care, You never treated me this way when then.

laying down, waiting for your lovin'

It's quite dumb if you're trying to mediate a situation and you end up getting caught up and the persons becomes you know cold towards each other. I'm like some shitty busybody. I need to start minding my own business instead of going to other people and asking about them when i can't bloody hell handle myself.

It's sad when 2 people are in love but they can't commit to each other due to their religion. I'm not saying that having a religion is bad, but why forbid love? Don't you think it's silly to give up on something you want so much just so that the father up there would love you? I don't think so. I always thought the father would love you no matter what, murderer or kidnapper. What's wrong with 2 girls being in love? What's wrong with 2 men being in love? Why are people put through this stereotype.

Sometimes, WE GOTTA GET DOWN AND LET LOOSE! MOOSE! MOOSE! GOOSE! GOOSE!
ooops. ;\

I dreamt about MORGAN QUINN! the moment i woke up i realised it was just a dream :( and i rushed to get it written out.

I dreamt that it was march 16, the zouk party then before it we had school! :\ then at school i was wearing a black tie with a white shirt and a jacket and then i realized i was wearing at off colour pants then i went into the classroom i saw like all the project runway models in partioned off area and they were like changing! not naked la. but shorts and i saw their thongs! :\ then i changed my pants and i sat down, then Ng Ching Chong came into class and started saying some stuff then morgan walked out of the classroom around that time, she was carrying a guitar and some other big bags. OMG then i shouted MORGAN! but she left the classroom already, then i saw her walk towards the back of the classroom then i shouted MORGAN! again then she looked into the class and Ravinder pointed her out then i was like, MORGAN! she looked at me for awhile then left. then we turned our heads back to see ng ching chong, then guess who we saw! TIM GUNN! he looked like he was wearing some flashy shit by etro! then he gave us a talk. then i woke up. :(((

Hold on, Hold on.

We went to Kbox today, quite fun. Service, HORRIBLE. Joyceh says that we can go out tomorrow. I hope we can. I've got nothing to do at home. I want sunglasses haha! Town was really really empty when i went down kind off odd. Don't know what to wear if i were to go down tomorrow. I want to wear this rugby jersey like thing but it's super thick and it would be really really warm.

Leave a message,
i'm gonna call back.
You can't stay,
i'm not letting you go.

mmmmmmmm, I'm going out later. I need clothes and my dvds. damn, why am i always so screwed.

You had a year to think about it;

I have this one question for you. Were we ever friends? Do you think we could start a new? I'd like to get to know you again. My name is Gwendolyn, what's yours? My cca is Badminton and Softball, I know you were from Track but you seem to have taken an outside cca. I have 2 sisters, what about you? My favourite subject is F&N and Geography ( 'cept for M.MC ) How bout you?

and once again, i've stoop down so low. I don't need more of your mockery anymore. Start afresh girl, start it now.

My parents left for Dubai already and in the car my dad was like, WHY CAN'T WE SIT BUSINESS CLASS! And my mum was like, NEXT TIME LA AHYO! so cute la. Hmmm. ok i'm blogging again, why? Just cause.

we needed love when we needed you.

If tomorrow you read the papers and you see headlines or some mentionable section that with like headings something like Girl,14 brutally stabbed over text messages. Do not be surprised, cos that could be me. I'm like jealous of Krystal cos she Isabelle keeps messaging her. Now, that's really lesbian. Damnit, i can't stand myself!

Hello, i keep wasting my time staying in school and stuff. I want to figure out how to tie and tie then i can wear it to ROMP! heehee. Hmmm. I feel so screwed and down. I know why but i just cant seem to bring myself to admit to something like that.

My parents are leaving for Dubai later. I'm going to the airport. I'm tired. Gosh!
GOODNIGHT.

Hello, i went to school at 6 and i miss them. :( so pathetic la. I regret not going. and i'm listening to teddy geiger. I'm gonna cry damnit. I mean not really, but it's cos the song is damn sad and those people are gone and i still go to school and the whole fucking school is so fucking empty. It makes me sad cos the people i like to laugh with aren't there at all! :(

i called men at work tailor, some really cool jacket my dad made from them i swear at least 15 years ago. Cos this jacket is fucking tiny. it's like when my dad was much smaller. my dad was smaller last time cos he was muscular, but now it's all fats. HEH! :D anyway i want to make a jacket/suit for the zouk party. i called and asked how much is it to make a suit and he was like depends on the material, he said he had wool and cashmere. then i was like, do you have a suit which is cooler in our weather then she was like, have tropical wool. and i was like how much he said a suit for about $480. and i was like how bout just a jacket and he was like $400. and i put down the phone. i felt kinda guilty for slamming it down. :( but i really want a jacket. I dont want all those you get off the shelves. it's so no quality. :
I stayed in school until like 5.30. WAH LAO! i was in school for 11hrs and 30minutes. but i had fun! i think isabelle's damn cute! I've got her number!! *jumps around like a moron screaming isabelle's so cute!* I'm tired i want it to be like this everyday!

Crash, anxiety.

First of all, i'm very pissed off with some chao ah lian from the north western area ( she hangs out at Lot 1, go figure ) i decided to check out her blog cos of the PwInCeSs lIiz and all the purrtty decorations. Damint, i went there and it crashed my computer's display driver.

Secondly, I'm very scared of Danni minogue. I'm serious i think she's lesbian judging from the fact most of her fans are gay men and that she was caught fucking some stripper,http://www.egotastic.com/entertainment/celebrities/dannii-minogue/. that's prove bitch!

alright, imma gonna make a list of people and you go figure what they are.

1. Mischa Barton
2. Keira Knightley
3. Sarah Shahi
4. Katherine Moennig
5. Olivia Wilde
6. Angelina Jolie
7. Sienna Miller
8. Morgan Quinn
9. Erin Denardo
10. Molly Sims
11. Piper Perabo
12. Daniela Hantuchova
13. Anastasia Myskina
14. Amelie Mauresmo
15. Emilie Loit ( pronouced as lwah, Not loo-it as pronounced by Hamish brown! )
16. Nora Caliguri
17. Alexandra Vidal
18. Jennifer Aniston
19. Eva Longoria
20. Alize Cornet
21. Charlize Theron
22. Jenny Shimizu
23. Gemma Ward
24. Maria Kirilenko

well... i guess there's more, but i can't remember! :( TOO MANY! :( If there ARE anymore, i'll update this list. HEH. :D

Dvds that i want to buy this year.

1. My Summer of Love
2. Show Me Love
3. Monster
4. Lost and Delirious
5. Saving Face

great, that's about it i guess. hope i can get all that under $200. Then again maybe i don't want monster. But i want it cos there's charlize theron. SHOOT. i can't find anything on Erin Denardos! I think Morgan's irritating. bye cheebs!

It's a quarter to 2,
and i'm still in love with you.
You've shown me a different light
at times your might.
We've changed over a year,
but still your voice i yearn to hear.
Mistake it was
but ever too glad it happened.

I'm so emo. disastrous. DISASTER. go clubbing. ASK CHERMIN! yes! i just figured! ugh! heehee!

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AHYA. I WANT TO CHANGE TEMPLATE LA. SO ANNOYING. HEEHEE.

I like jay's design and i like this picture of Erin, maybe cos i like what she's wearing. That damn micheal kors said it was too butch. But i think it's kinda cool. There's another blue one it's really cool too and the model looks like Erin too, but it's some look-a-like.

Sometimes, all i want to do is to sit in front of you and cry and tell you how i really feel.

I am very selfish.
I'd forsake my bestfriends happiness for myself.

It's been a year. Somehow i don't know if i still feel the same way for you.
I used to think i could be in love with you for a really long time.
I guess i'm wrong.
I deleted your messages and everything.
I think i'm letting go. but not all.
remember the time i said, i'll be there for you always.
I meant it.

You know i feel like super crap. Like those chao humongous ones that just cant get out of your damn asshole. Ahya, i'm damn annoyed. I really hate people ignoring me. :(

i had to, i had to, I HAD TO!
ahh.. how i wish i was in the middle. :D
this is quite amusing how people on wta think that
these two have got something going on.

"...and Momo will have the chance to perfect her game against Nastya "

" There has been quite a few photos of them together since the AO started. Perhaps Amelie finally has Nastya under her spell?? "
" could be the other way round tho.. "
" yeah... agree "

" They actually practice together quite often...last year there were also a few pics, I just can´t rememeber which tourneys and one of them is always laughing."
" Actually it's always Momo laughing hard "

:D I LOVE WTAWORLD. but got no time go and kaypoh anymore. :(

i hate to wake you up.

I hate this, it feels like we are already breaking up. It doesn't feel the same anymore. It really doesn't and it sucks. I'll always remember the letter you wrote to me how you said we'd be friends forever. That's a promise you made. I've always stayed to true to you but now you're just walking away. It really feels so different. Please come back, don't leave me behind. I'm crying out for you, really.

I went to subway after school today with tanya and sihui. We ate and we talked and we managed to get 2 free refills heh! But the china men like wanted to tell on us. We had F&N before that. Then during F&N Yimei ignored me! Not fair ok! :( anyway, tomorrow's geography and i want to do considerably well ( think the range of top3 in class ) and i've yet to ask my mum if i can stayover at maryanne's place ( although i don't really have the heart to ).